Archive for January, 2011

January 9, 2011

Dance, Dance, Dance

It just seemed fitting to post on some of the topics I have missed: Don’t give up, Fear, oh yes an Aha moment. These three phrases speaks volumes.

Don’t give up and Losing interest.

Life is tough. You know it and I know it. Some days it totally sucks, and others are the best days of your life.  When I was very little I wanted to be a stock broker, but I knew that I would never be a mom if that was the path I chose. My final decision was to be a mom. I have never regretted that choice. I lost interest in being a stock broker. Life changed.

Being a parent is amazing and I absolutely dig my outlook on it. First, I can now talk to myself and it is perfectly acceptable. It also help to wear a bluetooth in your ear. When my kids were babies I would have whole conversations with them as I pushed them around the store. Of course they were to young to respond to my adult conversation, but I had someones undivided attention to tell my troubles to. Let me just say that talking out loud solves more problems that just keeping them locked up in your mind. A problem pondered upon is a problem unsolved. This is exactly the reason we tell our troubles to our friends, jot them down on paper.

Second, you can do anything your kids do and get away with it. Kids love to run down the isles of Costco, which is one of those buy in bulk warehouse stores. Jumping on the bed or other house furniture is great fun to. Dancing to a song you hear where ever you are. Making ridiculous faces to the people driving by. Lying in bed all day and feeling good about it. My all time favorite now that my kids are older, embarrassing them in public.

Having kids can change your life for the fun. I would never do any of these things if I didn’t have kids. It would be unacceptable. That’s just all there is to it. People would think your mad, crazy, loony. Even now that my kids are older I think out loud. They frequently ask who I am talking to and I always reply to them although there is no need for them to listen.  I have also learned that others opinions of me means little if anything at all. What’s important here is to have fun. I love acting like a kid.

Kids are naturally curious about everything around them.  My kids have gotten me to go through the mosh to catch frogs. It was a tom sawyer day pants rolled up to my knees and all. Make birds fly. Have you ever run into a crowd of birds and watched them fly away. Or laid on the beach and just let the waves wash over you. How about dancing on the coffee table.  Kids will boost your confidence to do these things. Make all your fears go away. They are totally an AHA moment.  I would have missed out on so much of life if I had not had kids.

Again still sick so Im not editing. Sorry if my thoughts Are not complete Thanks for reading

January 8, 2011

Extreme Kids Extreme

I consider myself lucky not to have a kid that wants to sit in front of a video game. One that doesn’t like to watch TV, and one that complains when its raining outside, although that never kept him inside.  As I wrote in one of my first posts my son rides dirt bikes. He races dirt bikes, and as of Christmas he is 10 years old. He is an extreme kid that does extreme sports.

Looking ahead to the future we all see the Travis Pastrana’s and the the Shaun White’s and don’t think about there childhood or their parents. We are amazed at what they can do and are always willing to see more. They are all grown up and they make the crucial decisions about the safety and well being of their own life. But wait! They too were kids and being so their parents had to make those life and death decisions for them.  That said I am very proud of my sons choices. He is able to make the decisions he need to out on the track.

I remember 2 moments when I was against my son riding motocross or dirt bikes. The first when he was 5 and got his CRF50, and the second when he crashed with his trainer. When these kids crash its ugly.  Lets talk about the second first.  I remember being at the track on a Monday and yes I take him out of school for this. He is an awesome student. Anyways I was nervous about the whole thing. This was one of our first real training sessions with his trainer and we were going to work on speed around the corners, 4th gear pinned is what you want to shoot for with no brakes. No brakes, wholly crap are you kidding me. Well it wasn’t a corner he crashed on it was working one section of the track. He was getting back on the track when his KTM65 got stuck on a side wall and the bike fell over trapping his leg underneath it. I ran out there to help and a guy on his 250 stopped, layed his bike down but it was still in motion so the rear tire shot up in the air  almost taking me and my son out.  Its hard to explain without using hand motions to demonstrate.  Needless to say it was scary.

The first time I saw my son really crashed on a bike he was going over a whoop section out at the desert. Both of his little hands went up in the air and he made a perfect x with his body as he was flung several feet. He bit his tongue and said he was never getting on the bike again. “Ok, thats fine but you have to ride the bike back to our camp,” I said. He got back on the bike and has never gotten off.

My boy can do this; in fact he never uses the brakes, and stays focused out there on the track.  He can clear doubles, triples, anything Stewart, Villipoto,  Alessi, Reed, can do, my son at ten can also do. I’m not saying he can’t improve we all can, the point here is he’s good. Damn good. In fact my son is quite the prodigy at this. You tell him how to do something once and he goes and does it. He has almost perfect form and I dare say can be a top contender one day.  Of course I’m his mom and we like to blow our own horns.

Back to the day with the trainer. That wasn’t the only crash he had that day, nope there were more. One particular time the trainer said, “Damn Parents” He wasn’t talking to me but rather anther pro rider. He made sure he said it loud enough for me to hear. My boy also told him that he gets nervous with me on the track and rightfully so because I am extremely scared to lose my son.

Doing what you love

Isn’t doing what we love the soul purpose to this life. I love being a mom. I love writing, playing my guitar, my job because it allows me to do what I love. Well my son loves motocross. If he wasn’t good at it then I wouldn’t pay for it. Like I said I don’t want to lose my son and I could make him play some, in my opinion, second rate sport like soccer to keep him safe. Really I just can’t stand the soccer parents. The sport is great fun. Make him join the masses that play x-box because they have nothing better to do. But why crush his very being under a little white and black ball.

One fine day.

It was after a race and we were going to pick up his trophy. My son says to me and at the time he was nine, ” Its ok if I die out there mom.” That’s awesome and I am still so glad  he felt the need to share that with me. This though is the statement that keeps me sending him to motocross. This statement is the one that keeps his blood pumping and gives him a reason to live. This is who he is and who he is always going to be. This is the reason I have told more than one mom to shove it when they criticize my parenting by letting him on a bike. This is why I fought the lead law ban that would ban the very bikes he rides. I don’t know about you but he isn’t licking the frame.  Don’t get me wrong I am scared to death one day he won’t come home but I told him I loved him before they left and that I was proud of him.

I am still very sick so I didn’t edit this. Thanks for reading today.

January 7, 2011

What to say what to say

What to say what to say. Well you would have thought that for the last two days I would have made some progress. I would have more words written down since I spent the last two days in bed sick, sick and more sick. I’m not really sure that I feel better now but I’m tired of being sick so I am going to give today a go regardless of the yuck.

The only good thing I can say about being sick and having kids that are a little older is that they are willing to take care of their mum. To bring me a cup of steaming hot chocolate or just to check on how I am doing in the middle of the afternoon.  I feel blessed to have them in more ways than this though.  They are wonderful.

The sickness I have narrowed down to food poisoning. Greek yogurt seems to be the culprit. I had a sense when I ate it to that the whole situation wasn’t going to turn out good and 3 days later I am still sick as a dog. Although, I am not quite sure what dogs has to do with it or ever did.

Well there are some statistics on the matter and now I am one. Yeppie,  Fortunately, I don’t think I am going to die over this, but continuing to be sick through the weekend may be a huge possibility.

To better quantify the impact of foodborne diseases on health in the United States, we compiled and analyzed information from multiple surveillance systems and other sources. We estimate that foodborne diseases cause approximately 76 million illnesses, 325,000 hospitalizations, and 5,000 deaths in the United States each year. Known pathogens account for an estimated 14 million illnesses, 60,000 hospitalizations, and 1,800 deaths. Three pathogens, Salmonella, Listeria, and Toxoplasma, are responsible for 1,500 deaths each year, more than 75% of those caused by known pathogens, while unknown agents account for the remaining 62 million illnesses, 265,000 hospitalizations, and 3,200 deaths. Overall, foodborne diseases appear to cause more illnesses but fewer deaths than previously estimated.


January 6, 2011

The New App Mac Store

I love me some Mac and will always take seconds. I have a Mac desk top, laptop, 4 touches, 2 nanos, and a shuffle.  That seems like a lot but 2 of the touches are first gen and the other 2 are 4th gen. The kids got the old ones. So I love Mac. I converted 3 years ago and I will never go back to PC. The only thing I don’t like about Mac is the prices but you get what you pay for.

Lets go shopping, The Mac store is open. Let me just say that compared to the 99 cent apps that are available on the Itouch, Iphone and Ipad these  Mac apps at first glance seem to be a bit pricey.  I did notice some major programs listed like Mars Edit a social networking program, Rapid Weaver 5 a web designing program, Ilife, etc. So it appears to be a mall of malls with one stop shopping for all.

For all you Angry Bird Lovers out there the introductory price of $4.99 will get you the desk top version., but buy it quick because that’s half off.   I also see that there are many complaints about it crashing the system. I am sure it is going to take some time to work out the kinks.  Ok I can’t see paying 4.99 for a game when I only paid 99 cent for it on my itouch and I got it for free on my galaxy phone.

Although there are some major apps I am going to stand with major pricey for apps that shouldn’t be more than a dollar ot two. There is an app to keep track of your dog medical records. The app is 24.99. I love my dog and all but a manilia folder at the bottom of my desk drawer does fine.

The is an app for writing music. Its 10.00 which is resonable price except that it only has 3 stars and for my 10.00 I want full functionality, 5 stars please.

I downloaded a few little free things. Which took a bit because there were errors on Apples site, but its obvious that Apple has their techs techin away to banish any issues. This is one of the great things about Apple and the one thing that makes it worth paying the money. Apple is an American company that is located right here in California. When you call you get a customer service rep that speaks English and one that you can understand.  No matter what language you speak it is always nice to have a customer service rep that you can understand.

So if you have a Mac, check out the Mac store. You have to have snow leopard and do an update. The app store will install itself to your dock

January 6, 2011

It’s a political rant – Read with caution

I just want to say what I want to say.  Sometimes that’s not very nice, I know.

Like I am not a fan of our president though I don’t blame him for the state of the economy. He wasn’t the one that spent trillions of dollars on a war. I don’t know that I will every be a fan of a president.

I am a fan of don’t ask and don’t tell. Why do people want to know about other peoples sex life. If you ask and then you tell you have to have separate everything for everybody and do you know how much of the tax payers dollars that is going to cost the people to implement that in the military. Crap that’s a lot of money.  And for the record I don’t care if you are gay. I don’t have a problem with a life partner as far as wills, medical insurance, housing etc goes. I don’t care that people say the bible is anti gay. If your gay your gay. That’s fine. My best friend in college was gay and he was awesome. I have people in my life now that are gay and they are awesome. I love them to death.  This is hot topic, so my final stand is gays aren’t a diseased group of people they are humans who deserve to be treated as such, so I’m not anti-gay. I am anti using tax payers money to build separate barracks for straight and separate barracks for gay. Wholly crap again that’s a lot of taxpayer money. I also know that don’t ask don’t tell wasn’t perfect nor was it probably fair, but there has to be a better way to address everyone. I will apologize now if I have offended you. That was not my intent.

I just want to live my life and keep my money. The very fact that some person on welfare is getting my money pisses me off.  Dude get a job or at least try. I know everybody needs help from time to time, but really. I can barley pay my bills now and my taxes are high.

I hate the stupid way politicians write a bunch of crap into a bill. You know I got a cell phone ticket and there is a fee attached to it for night court. We don’t even have night court. There is a fee to DNA testing. What the heck. I don’t need DNA testing because I was talking on a cell phone and for that matter I certainly don’t need to pay over 100 dollars in fines that are attached to my 20 dollar ticket.

I hate the way that society just as a whole has us by our bottoms. I went to Best Buy with a gift card and the money on the card magically disappeared. So have a nice day and come back soon. They didn’t care. It wasn’t there mistake or there problem. I’m out the money and they just got free cash.

I really hate the way companies think 20% off is some big savings and advertise it like they are so awesome by doing me this favor.  Give me 20% over your cost and then we will talk.

You know I walked in the gas station the other day to get fuel. I said twenty on 8. I repeated my self three time before I went to pump.  The guy who didn’t speak English put the money on another pump and I was screwed and out 20 dollars.

I hate the way the is no recourse. No action that can be taken because customer service is a bunch of morons getting minimum wage that can do nothing about your problem and in some cases are sitting in another country.  If you ask to speak to a supervisor you get the guy in the next cubicle over who also can do nothing but would be happy to take your information while he plays paper toss with the trash can.

I hate the way that all these damn tree huggers are ruining business in California. I bought the kindle already. OK, so I’m not against saving the environment. I do my part. What I am against is California and their EPA guys that are imposing new regulations on business and the powers that be don’t even have the solutions, the new engines, or the resources to properly implement these regulation. The cost to modify every big truck in this state will cost billions. California is going to bring industry to a halt. It is so expensive to live here.  This particular rant could last for an hour or so and I know its a blanket complaint.

On a side not my daughter is a tree hugger. I have made many many changes in my life because of her influence. We have cut the paper use down in out household by some 60-70 percent. We have cut water bottles down by 80%. I buy one case of water bottles every two or three months just to have in case of emergency. We reuse printer paper when we can. In fact I have printed legal document on the back side of used paper.  We have picked up trash and rescued dogs.  I am all for tree huggers, and for a better environment.

I hate the way the little people get screwed by cost increases. Why in the heck do I have to pay for your business mistakes.

I hate the way people cut off truck drivers. Maybe you hadn’t noticed they are bigger than you.

I hate the way motorcycles cut lanes and then its my fault when they crash. Don’t do 110 down the freeway.

I hate the way they don’t make left handed guitars as much as they make right handed.

I hate that I don’t have an IPAD.

That’s enough hate for one day.  Sometimes its just good to vent. I am sure I will have more another day. If you made it this far without wanting to burn me at the stake then awesome. I will apologize if I offended you. That was not my intent.

So would I regret dying today. Probably not. I wrote what was on my mind and its nice to vent every now and again.

January 5, 2011

Self Doubt

I have certainly hit the age where I don’t really care what people think of me although that’s not to say that I dont value their opinion or willingly accept their criticism. I was reading some blogs today and this popped in my head.

What do I want to be when I grow up?

That’s a tough question even for me and I am grown up. I am not sure that I wanted to be what I am but I know I didn’t want to be a social worker. That’s what I went to college for – for eight years. I enjoyed every minute, every assignment, every friend.  I think looking back I would have rather studied writing but I am not sure that I enjoyed it as much then as I do now, so its hard to say.  I wish my parents would have gotten my left handed guitar lessons. I bummed but do not regret the fact that I didn’t learn to play sooner. I like composing and recording and although I have only written one piece I am very proud of it even if it sucks which I dont think it does. I wish I had taken more art classes because I love to paint but I dont do it much these days because I am really not that into it. My daughter is and that makes me proud. I wish I would have done this or that but I did what I did and all that lead me to the point in my life where I sit here typing. I have no regrets.

So do we wish we would have started things earlier in life. Yep. Do we wish our parents would have known us better as kids. Seen the brighter path. Maybe the one we should have been on. Yep. But I think that a good parent does the best that they can. They work to put food on the table, clothes on your back, education in your mind, and morals in your soul.  You dont come with a handbook, and it is for certian there is no angel telling what you should grow up to be. Sometimes I think it’s gods little game to see who makes it to the right path and who does not.

Does doing one thing in your chosen field make you better at your goal than another. No, one should aspire to be well rounded. To constantly learn on the topic they are passionate about.  There are some great artist in this word and my question to that would be did they want to be great or did they just stumble upon it. Of course this is leaving the prodigies out of the equation. I wonder if Jane Austin set out to be the greatest female writer of all time. She was a good writer for her time and she is one of the greatest of ours.  Mozart is an amazing composer and he was a great composer for his time. Picasso the same. It is unfortunate and just my opinion that we, us will not leave our mark of great reflection until after we die. No matter how big or small it is we will all leave a mark.  The words that you write; the music that you make; the stories you tell; the pictures you paint will all leave there mark. They will change someones opinion; inspire someone to be like you; bring hope where there was once none. Every action you take today will leave an impression on someone in some way.

There is nothing about you that is wrong.

We are our own worst enemy. We judge the way we dress; the way we look; the way we feel; who we love; and most importantly who we are by the thoughts and judgements of the masses. I will probably never meet you. I only know of you because of the words you have written here. You seem like a great person although all that can be a lie. One of the coolest things about writing is the ability to conjure up stories. Here in a blogging worlds you can be whoever you want to be,  We all try to be something that we are not. A picture of what we think society expects. How hard is it truly to be ourselves. To be the person that we are when no one else is around. To love ourselves for how we feel.  I don’t like everybody and not everybody likes me. This is ok because there are a great many people in this world and I just don’t have time for all of them. That said there is no reason why we should try to make everybody happy when its is our individual happiness that is the most important and from that those around us will truly be blessed.

I am going to stop here although I know I have more to say. Reading your blogs have inspired my everyday, and from that inspiration I find my own words. Hope you like them and thanks.

My son asked me this morning if I would regret dying today. Nope not today. Not with a kid like that. He’s awesome

January 5, 2011

This is where things get hairy, Writing

With the end of school vacation coming and my work getting back to normal busy this could be a real challenge.  During Christmas I have a bunch of time off and the rain keeps us inside. That left a lot of time that I could write.

Life gets busy, busy gets hectic and hectic gets nothing accomplished. It would be a shame this early in the game to bow down and let this all go by the way side. So many thoughts that never see transformation in to words.

Here are a few things that I have come up with that I think might help.

Voice recorder on my phones front page so I can easily get to it while driving. Not that I should be messing with my phone while I’m driving.

Leave pen and paper everywhere so even if its a sentence or two I can jot it down.

On the goal of better time management this month. If I am waiting for something take notes instead of playing a game . That’s if there is no one to talk to.  We, as a general population spend a great deal of time waiting.  I wait to pick up my kids from school. I wait in line all the time because I always get in the slowest line.  I wait, you wait and there has to be a way to use this time to my advantage.

I need more focus, but to much organization just kills me. 15 min for this , 15 min for that, etc., would work wonders in everybody life I am sure. Do you know how much weight this world could lose if they worked out for a focused 15 min a day. On the bigger note how much I could write. I know its true.  It is.

On a final note if you are just passing by and have suggestion comments or would just like to share hoe you find them time to write leave a comment. I would love to hear your thoughts and ideas. It would help me be successful

January 4, 2011

Texting vs Talking

Texting is great if you have something quick to say like I’m running late or hey mom I’m just checking in and I’m still at my friends.

Texting has become a worse habit than heroin. I often see people stop everything to respond to a text and then they stop again and again. take a break have a chat omg, are you kidding me, really. You spend more time testing than you would having a chat in real time.

Through out the day my husband and I use goggle talk. If it’s important I call but most of the time its nothing more than an update with no response needed. Its a way for us to stay in touch or just say hi, but even this can become annoying. When we hear our phone we are compelled to answer. Often the ringing gives us a sense of urgency, a sense of priority. Unfortunately that sense becomes more urgent than the very thing we are attending to like our job or our children. So for me texting is super annoying and takes up a great deal of time.

A time of technology. Here’s the deal maybe I’m just lazy, maybe I am just using time management, and maybe I’m just avoiding you. What ever the case may be I write on my itouch which looks a lot like texting on a iphone. I would use pen and paper but then I have to retype the whole thing and this could be time better spent writing something else, playing my guitar or just having a chat.

Ah the need for an iPad yet another device to disassociate your self from the masses,  communicate better with loved ones,  be more productive, or just have a little fun playing a game while your in the doctors waiting room.

For what ever reason we like our devices one thing is constant. We love them. All of them.

January 4, 2011

Rambling Morning

There was a post here. I am not sure where it got off to but run away it did.

In a nut shell I reviewed a book by Heather Sellers, Page by Page its a great writing tool and an easy read. She also wrote Chapter by Chapter.  You can find her information on Amazon. I had it all here but I have to go.

Maybe both posts will show up and that will make me laugh.  Ha Ha. Funny little words.

Have a great day

January 3, 2011

What makes me smile

Wow, that’s a big one. A long list, I guess list form it is.

My husband. He’s a goof but I love him. The first thing he told me was he’s an asshole and that’s not going to change. It hasn’t he just gotten better at it. Like vintage whiskey.

My kids. They can be a real pain the ass but that’s what I had them for. They are amazing. Ones a 10 year old motocross rider and the other is 11 and a dancer. Both are extremely smart, compassionate and really outgoing

The fact that you read this is pretty darn exciting. Lets not forget that grahambledeggs left my first comment which totally made my day.

Its rainy and cold outside which is awesome because it gives me an excuse not to do anything, and I am a pro at that.

Sitting here doing this,  playing my guitar, eating just about anything, the fire place burning downstairs. Life in general is pretty awesome.

And on the topic of would I regret dying today.  Nope not after writing this. I am pretty darn happy. Now off to play guitar.